Sonntag, 1. Juli 2007
As mu...
As much as I enjoy being single right now, I miss the sex. I miss coming into an already warm bed. To feel hands all over my body and the look in someone eyes that is totally focused on me. I miss making someone moan with pleasure until the point they push me away. I'm not very experienced when it comes to sex. This seems to surprise a lot of people. When you pose for sexy pictures, you're automatically someone who sleeps around. I've had four sexual partners in my life. Two of them I was married to, one was a girl. The last one took my virginity so that would make him the first. I was in love with all of them. I'm not sure, is sex different if you're in love? Because in theory it shouldn't. It's just flesh. But when anticipation is enough to make you practically come with one touch, you realize there's something more. I'm comfortable in my body. I wish it was a little stronger so I've been working hard prior to the TR2 filming. I have scars, and the tattoos of course. I'm fascinated with scars. I don't afflict them on myself anymore. I can't take it back. Sometimes the pain grows too unbearable and the release comes in opening up. Maybe it will bleed away. I remember but I can't relate to that at the moment. I'm more my own person, and what's more important, I'm responsible for another person. But I still like to look at others, their wrinkles, scars, trademarks. I love the traces of life in a person. I can't believe how people have them surgically removed. You have lived, you're experienced, you learned. Take that away and you're just another empty page. I'll press post now and go back to my mood. And the one person I like to talk about nothing with.
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Sex without love is just flesh. You're right on the nose with that. There's nothing wrong with it, but one's much more powerful. This entry wasn't supposed to turn me on, was it? I have to read with a more controlled mind from now on.I like your music.
I understand how sex with strangers can be a turn on. Just a freakin one night stand for god's sake. Everyone has considered that. But I never did it because I don't like to give myself to just anyone in such a physical way. But if you're mine, I'll do anything. It's a new band. I like them a lot.
It won't let me back on. It seems I've pissed it off, so you're stuck with me commenting a lot.Some people seem to be wired to be able to do that with abandon and for some it just doesn't come naturally, and I think it not coming naturally for you is part of what makes you as special as you are. I can't believe I just said that, but it's true. It likely just sounds comical coming from me, the man about London, but that's a bunch of crap really.I heard they sing about planets a lot.
It did that with me the other night too. This way I get pictures with the message, I don't mind. Okay, since we're on the subject of me for once. (do you still feel you don't know me?) Relationships and me are very basic, but there are elements that make it difficult. I need to be free, yet loved. I need security but you can't suffocate me. I just want the 'us' part to be special. It's not so complicated after all, it's very universal. Who can blame them. It's an interesting topic. Seems like if AIM hates you, Livejournal hates me. It's taking ages to reply.
Did I say I felt as if I didn't? Because I think I understand you pretty well. You're not as complicated as people make you out to be.The best analogy I can think of to use is an anchor. The rest of the world spins round and me along with it, but there's always that foundation, that thing to come back to, and that's very nice. There's a Swedish band with a song called "I Want to be Alex from Blur." This Alex James band should cover that.
You did. A long time ago. I remember it because at that time I was airing my problems for everyone and then there was you and you suddenly said "I feel like you know everything about me and I don't know anything about you." That still baffles me a little. That is nice. In the end I think that's what everyone is searching for. I'm a little jaded in that department. I guess a lot of people are, but I can only speak for me. The key is not giving up. I give up. Maybe because nomadism is in my blood, maybe because I'm looking for something bigger than another person. I think the Alex James band's goal is, in fact, to become Alex from Blur.
Sex with out love, damn I would say most people done it, maybe because they feel that there’s no other way or something, pretty much just giving up and letting themselves down, and after that most of them always get hurt from every time they are pushed.But for you, I think it’s a battle that you will take control of and win, by finding someone you want, and wants you back the same way.
MY GOD THAT ICON IS HOTahem.i've had sex without love and it's nothing to write home about. i much more prefer the making love, the slow, i love you more than anyone alive sex. it's amazing to have something like that with someone you are so in love with, you know?
If I've never said it before you're probably one of the most fascinating people on my friends list.If all sex were meaningless there'd be a lot more people having it. The fact it means something to enough people somehow prevents that from happening unless you're like me and hop between the two.
Is it okay with you if I am a little in love with you always because I do not think I can help it?
That makes me a little sad. I know you're right. You come to a point where you just think fuck it and you long for something physical, it's an instinct after all, and you sleep with the first person you can get. It's meaningless really. But everyone reach the fuck it stage once in a while. I like to think I'm in control but humans are great at self-denying and not seeing what's there for... well, what's there.
The sincerity of that just made me miss home.
You can thank the ever-wonderful Julian for that. He's probably going to reply with I WIN! Or something. I know exactly what you mean. When maintaining eye contact is just as important as the orgasm. No wait, I take it back. When eye contact triggers orgasm. I guess bottom line is, sex is good. Love is better. Or something along those lines.
I don't think so. Thank you. That meant a lot to me. I admire you if you manage to keep a balance. Get attached when you feel it's right and play it casual when it's not so right. I honestly don't know where my boundaries are. It's more like if I'm not completely in love with you, why would I want you touching me. I guess that could be considered frigid, but that's how it is with me.
Haha I'm sure I can handle that, darling.
When you're having sex you reach some kind of middle ground sometimes that you can't reach otherwise in conversation. Is sex different when you're in love? I don't know if that's true. I think afterwards is what makes it different. I've had lust. I've had that kind of rip off your clothes fucking. It's fun. After awhile it's all about the fuck though and not much else. Been there, done that, have the fucking t-shirt.But when you're in love what happens after the orgasm is the important thing. I should rephrase, it's the before and after. The middle ground is already there and when you're in it, you're in it.Of course while you're in it, you might as well enjoy it. That's the damn greatest part of being in love.- Christian
thats how it just is today, but im sure you have the control.
I got all excited because I thought you meant you missed me, then I realized you meant your wife. :'(
I miss you both.
You are so good to me. I won't mention how gay you all look in that icon ;)
Is there something gay about four men being crushed into a very small area against each other?
No, it's the look on your faces that makes it gay.
Do you really think of it as such a bad thing?
You have no idea right now. I can't even breathe. I think I'm going to die. And it will probably be over by tomorrow.
This and your comments with Alex just made me feel really lonely. It's not really a bad thing, it's more... I feel... lovesick. How disturbing. I will set out to rectify this at once.
You always have to outdo me and write entires in my comment space ;) I don't know what else to say expect I might think you're right. The connection can be more mind blowing than the actual orgasm sometimes.
It's not a bad thing. I suppose this entry sparked a lot of emotions. I'm just holding my breath at the moment.
There's a Swedish band with a song called "I Want to be Alex from Blur."Is there really?
There is. How sad. They are my idols. http://hem.passagen.se/bryony/bluralex.html
THANK YOU SO MUCH. I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU DID THAT.
You kept using the same icon. I figured something was wrong. So I checked your user info. And we have had too much fun with your icons, you need 10 and I figured it was time to repay you. <3
You're beautiful in every way possible.
I think I do have an idea, but I'll keep my mouth shut.
Of course. I should have known. You are Dave, Dave knows everything.
I like that smoking icon of yours by the way ;)No, I don't really try to outdo you Angelina :) When someone like yourself writes out an obviously well written entry like you have, you kind of deserve maybe more than the one liner comment. You can have an orgasm without trying. It's possible. Although it's limited.- Christian
So the rumour states.
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