Samstag, 7. Juli 2007
I made my baby say goodbye
Okay. Big moment of silence here. Silence is underrated. Because when you don't have anything sensible to say, don't fear the silence. Sometimes it's better to say nothing at all. Having said that, here we go. I'm confused and at the edge of my seat. I'm waiting for a release of some sort. And at the moment I'm clueless about the outcome. I told Dave the other day I feel like everyone is congratulating me but I have no idea what I've won. I didn't plan to fall for him. Alright, so I couldn't help it. I didn't plan for him to do anything about it. It feels like all we've done lately is talk and talk and talk and I don't feel anymore enlightened than I did Monday morning. That's when it all came down and I was a blur of emotions the whole day. Hmm, nice word. How fitting. This is the third time something like this has happened to me. I'm equally amazed each time. I find someone so incredibly beautiful and talented and I fall in lust with them, just like everyone else. And then, from all the people, they picked me. I ended up marrying two of them. With the second one, my soul mate number 1365 or inset another random number here, his divorce wasn't even final. I'm starting to see a pattern. We all know how it ended. And with me, it always ends. I care about him so much. It sounds like such a cliche but I only want to see him happy. He's too sweet of a person to use me as an excuse to get out of something, something he never really talked about, but even if he did, it would be okay. But these are just twisted details. It could be really simple if I wasn't so afraid to lose him. As a friend, as a person I completely trust. Now someone will probably try and reassure me I'm a neurotic freak. And I probably am. After reading this much, haven't you suddenly found a renewed love for silence? I've been making a lot of excuses in this entry, in hope of making it rational and I ended up sounding completely jaded. Of course I want him more than anything. I don't know why I don't allow myself to be all giddy and happy and... but that wouldn't be me, right. I didn't plan any of this, and I have the two longest weeks of my life to look forward to.
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I wasn't really surprised at all about it because I think you're fantastic. I don't foresee you losing him completely, whatever happens. He doesn't seem like the type to betray someone's trust once he has it, especially someone he cares about as much as he cares about you.
You have been nominated in the Fuckery awards. Take this time to see what you're nominated for. Thank you for having sex. Stay tune to see if you are a winner or not.
I told Dave the other day I feel like everyone is congratulating me but I have no idea what I've won.Ace description. Everyone's being poetic about it and I haven't even seen you so it all feels a bit...I don't know what word would be good to describe it. Surreal? That'll do. Seeing you will make the fog drift away.
I feel an 'aww' moment coming on here but that wouldn't even be half a decent reply. But then again, Dave allowed me a week as a babbling idiot and I'm taking full advantage. Aww, and like my icon says, I appreciate it, babe.
I feel a bit off, commenting on this..but..Angie, you're a wonderful girl, and deserve only the best. Take your time, enjoy the silence. You need something solid in your life, and this may very well be it. Love, lust - they go hand in hand, aye. You've always followed your gut instinct and that's one of your most admirable traits. Go with the feeling. Could've-beens are far worse than Why'd-I-do-thats. Good luck to the both of you. I mean that.
I aim for ace. Who's everyone? Surreal sounds fitting enough. Are you sure? I really didn't know what to say so I blurted out a lot of questions instead. Some things never change, you know. Dave has probably told you this, but we had a long talk last night and it assured me much more than I gave impression of here. This is horrible. Instead of mentioning you in my every reply, I'm mentioning Dave. This will stop this very minute. You should come home, I think your bed is missing you. Not that I would know anything about that of course. I know you like this icon, but I feel mean each time I use it. If I had talked about your hair as well, this comment would be a classic Angie reply.
Are you trying to make me cry? Jonny, you are something solid in my life. Your friendship means the world to me, and you know this. If not, you should. Damn, I'm at a complete loss of words. I don't know what's wrong with me. I might call you, and we can enjoy the silence together. Or let me take you out. You're right and you know me, I'm going with the feeling. Thank you. For all of the above and more.
I wasn't trying to make you cry, just speaking the truth, luv. Silence is golden, but it's far better when spent with someone else. Call, write, show up on my door step unannounced. It's always a pleasure to see you. My life's a bit crazy right now, so perhaps a friendly face is just what the doctor ordered. Seems we have plenty to gossip about.
No one plans much, and those few plans that we do make usually blow up in our own faces.It doesn't always have to end. You always have to look at the bright side of things, otherwise you just find that you're fucked.
hi, i'm new. just like to tell you that i added ya to my friend's list. :)
Welcome. I adore you and your show ;)
Anytime, I'm here for you. We should really talk sometime. Few read me better than you. I'm feeling more... secure right now but I want to hear everything about your life.
Word to the wise. I don't know why I kept apologizing. Oh wait, now I do. I'll tell you next time we talk.
All right. You seem to say that often.
That's because I don't want the world to know we're having an affair, silly. No really, I just don't want any trouble and typing it here could be. Guess who's coming to see her newfound best friend x2 tonight?
I understand completely.Using the context clue "her", I'm assuming you're talking about yourself.
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